One week countdown is on!!!

Let me start by saying - "Aaaagggghghhhhh!!!"

I am so fed up with egg whites, chicken and egg whites. I am desperate for something with substance. I feel sorry for myself posting any of my food because it is so bland. I jazz up my eating by changing the room I am eating in! How sad is that???

Okay readers, we all knew it was going to be tough the last week, and I am on track for that. Last night I went to bed at 8:00 pm. Just like a little baby. But I had a great sleep and of course woke up ravenous.

So here are the vittels for the last two days: (I ate the same on both days)

Breakfast: 2/3 cup large flake oatmeal cooked with water, 2 TBsp bee pollen, 2 TBSP flax seed
6 ounces wheat grass in 500 ml water
6 egg whites
black coffee
500 ml water

Mid Morning:
5 ounces white fish
1 cup steamed green beans
500 ml water
green tea

Lunch:
1/2 sweet potato
5 ounces white fish
1/2 cup green beans
1/2 cup asparagus
500 ml water

Mid Afternoon:
2 melba toasts
1 small apple
5 ounces grilled chicken
500 ml water

Dinner:
1 cup cooked spinach
6 ounces poached chicken breast
1/2 cup brown rice
1 small raw tomato

Before Bed: Food is now history!
I drink about 500 ml water with a calcium/magnesium supplement.

It has been a horrific week emotionally. Not only am I exhausted but emotionally drained. Leaving Rachel in Portland feels like I got punched in the stomach. As the plane rose in the air I saw Mt. Hood (which can be clearly seen from Rachel's apartment) becoming smaller in the distance and I decided right there that I hated Mt. Hood. I wondered why she had to go. Why I had to go. And then the breakdown that had not yet happened, happened. I cried for 2 hours. I am sure my seatmates thought someone in my family had died, I was crying so hard. Finally I fell asleep and then, as human nature would have it, a kind hand touched mine and asked if I was okay. That was the woman in seat 19D. She turned out to be an angel and let me talk out how I was feeling. Even the guy sitting between us piped in and shared some of his own difficult times. Those last three hours on the plane were not so bad and I thank 19D and 19F for their kindness.

Anyway I have been ridiculously tired and emotionally worn out. I will try to remember that everyone is healthy and well and that this is not the end of the world but ....

Got to go and train legs now.
Thinking of you all ...
Hope you will think of me too!
Tosca